love Rescued me!

Complete transparency is my goal.

Yes, I do follow God. But no I do not have it all together.

I'M NOT PERFECT JUST FORGIVEN :)

Through this blog my main and utter purpose is to show what God's mercy has/does in me. This is my spiritual walk, the most important walk I walk.

He can take an imperfect person like me and have a love for me that is beyond perfect. He has redeemed me and redeems me every single day. I fall short, every single day. And, wow, He still is completely in love with me. He knows every little thing and nothing scares Him off.

This day has been just one of those days...

Those days that where it seems like it is just you and God. One of those days when you realize who excepts you for you and doesn't want you to be anyone but you. Just one of those days..

As always, God revealed the perfect part of scripture; just what I needed. I flipped straight to Lamentation. If you're unfamiliar with Lamentation it is Jeremiah's account of his grief and sadness for the tragedy that happened in Jerusalem. Though all of his hope was lost, the Lord made it clear that eventually they would be restored for those who wait on Him through Jesus Christ.

"How lonely sits the city that was full of people! How like a widow is she, who was great among the nations! The princess among the provinces has become a slave. She weeps bitterly in the night, her tears are on her cheeks; among all her lovers. She has none to comfort her. All her friends have dealt treacherously with her, they have become her enemies. She finds no rest" -Lamentation 1:1-3

"Her adversaries have become the master, her enemies prosper; for the Lord has afflicted her. Because of the multitude of her transgressions. Her princes have become like deer that find no pasture, that flee without strength."

"With no one to help her, the adversaries saw her and mocked her downfall. For these things I weep. My eyes overflow with water because the comforter, who should restore my life, is far from me."

"The Lord has done what He purposed, He has fulfilled His word which He commanded in days of old. Pour out your heart like water before the face of the Lord. Life your hands towards Him."

"Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because of His compassions fail not. They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, says my soul, therefore I hope in Him! The Lord is good to those who wait for Him. To the soul who seeks Him, it is good that one should hope and wait quietly. For the salvation of the Lord, it is good for a man to bear the yoke in his youth. Let him sit alone and keep silent, because God has laid it on him, let him put his mouth in the dust- There may yet be hope. Let him give his cheek to the one who strikes him, and be full reproach." -Lamentation 3:22-30

Gods word is just so good :)

This reminds me too much how the lost and hopeless can find hope through the Lord. I have such a place in my heart for those lost from the Lord because I can remember how empty that was. The emptiness that just consumes you to the point were you question why, how, who, constantly. I remember because 2 short years ago I was there. The loneliness that cries out so loud that the silence is always filled with noise. I was the hopelessness that is in Lamentation, and had such a feel of that today. It was as if the hearts of the lost cried out to me more today than ever.

Living to please the world is such a downward spiral. Yes, as it says in Lamentations you will be mocked by your adversaries. This has been a large issue for me, given the fact that I'm a people pleaser. Constant approve from the world will not lead you into the arms of the Lord though, slowly but surely I am learning that. People pleasing is not God pleasing because God is not of this world. He deserves our all. Our everything. Our emptiness.

Gods promises are so much better than this world. His mercy consumes me and His compassion NEVER fails. His love for me is new every morning and He is all my soul longs for.

The Lord's better than this world. Better than anything. Forever and ever and will never leave nor forsake those who follow Him. Wow, to say that I'm undeserving of this love just falls short..